Saturday, February 20, 2010

MY TWO FAVORITE SONGS

"For Good"
"Nothing"

Lyrics for "For Good":

ELPHABA: I'm limited just look at me
I'm limited and just look at you
you can do all I couldn't do, Glinda,
so now its up to you for both of us
now it's up to you
GLINDA: I've heard it said
that people come into our lives
for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
and we are lead to those
who help us most to grow
if we let them and we help them in return
Well I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
because I knew you.
Like a comet pulled from orbit
as it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
halfway through the wood.
Who can say if I've been changed for the better
but, because I knew you
I have been changed for good.
ELPHABA: It well may be
that we will never meet again
in this lifetime
so let me say before we part
so much of me is made
from what I learned from you
You'll be with me
like a hand print on my heart
Now whatever way our stories end
I know you have rewritten mine
by being my friend
Like a ship blown from it's mooring
by a wind off the sea
like a seed dropped by a sky bird
in a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
GLINDA: because I knew you
BOTH: I have been changed for good
ELPHABA: And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
for the things I've done
you blame me for
GLINDA: But then I guess we know
there's blame to share
BOTH: And none of it seems to matter any more
GLINDA & ELPHBA: Like a comet pulled from orbit
(like a ship blown from its mooring)
As it passes a sun
(By a wind off the sea)
Like a stream that meets a boulder
(Like a seed dropped by a bird)
Halfway through the wood
(in a wood)
BOTH: Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed
for the better
GLINDA: And because I knew you
ELPHABA: because I knew you
BOTH: because I knew you,
I have been changed
...for
... good.

Lyrics for "Nothing":
[DIANA] I'm so excited because
I'm gonna go to the High School of Performing Arts!
I mean, I was dying to be a serious actress.
Anyway, it's the first day acting class
--and we're in the auditorium--
and the teacher, Mr. Karp... Oh, Mr. Karp...
Anyway, he puts us up on the stage with our legs around each other,
one in back of the other and he says:
"Okay... we're going to do improvisations.
Now, you're on a bobsled.
It's snowing out.
And it's cold...Okay...GO!"
Ev'ry day for a week we would try to
Feel the motion,
feel the motion
Down the hill.
Ev'ry day for a week we would try to
Hear the wind rush,
hear the wind rush,
Feel the chill.
And I dug right down to the bottom of my soul
To see what I had inside.
Yes, I dug right down to the bottom of my soul
And I tried, I tried.
[Spoken]And everybody's goin'
"Whooooosh, whooooosh
...I feel the snow
... I feel the cold
... I feel the air."
And Mr. Karp turns to me and he says,
"Okay, Morales. What did you feel?"
[sings]And I said...
"Nothing, I'm feeling nothing,"
And he says "Nothing Could get a girl transferred."
They all felt something,
But I felt nothing
Except the feeling That this bulls**t was absurd!
[Spoken]But I said to myself,
"Hey, it's only the first week.
Maybe it's genetic.
They don't have bobsleds in San Juan!"
[sings]Second week,
more advanced,
and we had to
Be a table,
be a sports car
...Ice-cream cone.
Mister Karp, he would say,
"Very good, except Morales.
Try, Morales, All alone."
And I dug right down to the bottom of my soul
To see how an ice cream felt.
Yes, I dug right down to the bottom of my soul
And I tried to melt.
The kids yelled,
"Nothing!"
They called me "Nothing"
And Karp allowed it,
Which really makes me burn.
The were so helpful.
They called me "Hopeless,"
Until I really didn't know
Where else to turn.
[Spoken]And Karp kept saying,
"Morales, I think you should transfer to Girl's High,
You'll never be an actress,
Never!"
Jesus Christ!
Went to church, praying,
"Santa Maria,
Send me guidance, send me guidance,"
On my knees.
Went to church, praying,
"Santa Maria,
Help me feel it, help me feel it.
Pretty please!"
And a voice from down
at the bottom of my soul
Came up to the top of my head.
And the voice from down
at the bottom of my soul,
Here is what it said:
"This man is nothing!This course is nothing!
If you want something,
Go find another class.
And when you find one
You'll be an actress."
And I assure you that's what
Fin'lly came to pass.
Six months later I heard
that Karp had died.
And I dug right down
to the bottom of my soul...
And cried.
'Cause I felt...
nothing.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

RUMORS

A couple of teachers are telling who they think will be taking the early retirement incentive - I will be turning in the letter on Friday - not really ready, but probably necessary. I've had a good run for the 38 years I've been proud to teach at Hobart High School. Administration is making a decent offer that I can't afford to pass up. Has to be 12 of us or it's a no-go. I cry every time some one asks me, so I have to get under control. It's been 18 years since they've made any retirement offer; the $$$ crunch is going to be awful; we've been pretty much "guilt-ed" into turning in the letters (so no one gets R.I.F. letters); no one is indispensable, but I hate leaving my "babies."

I knew I wanted to teach since fifth grade - WHAT I wanted to teach changed often! I loved biology - especially genetics - and REALLY wanted to teach it. In 1967, technology was not what it is today; handicaps dictated WHAT you COULD do. (My eyesight was legally blind and my eyes don't "line up" - when I looked in a microscope, what I could barely see wasn't ever one picture - biology teacher was out of the question.) I began my college career in special education; changed to elementary education; switched to secondary English; changed to speech; ended up with speech, theatre, and English.

After getting my bachelor's and master's degrees, I started job hunting and interviewing. The summer of 1972, I interviewed all over the state of Indiana - Lawrenceburg one day and Hobart the next. I WAS GOING TO TEACH SOMEWHERE!



The first year I started at Hobart, I sat at meetings complaining how hot and stupid I was for wearing a blue, long-sleeved, polyester dress! (I now complain how cold it is in my air-conditioned room!) The second Saturday, at the laundromat, I met a lovely lady who noticed I was new. In speaking with her, we discovered that her son and I both starting teaching at Hobart - Steve Balash was at the junior high school, and I was at the high school. That Sunday, Cynthia Lach asked her mom if she could bring a new teacher to lunch; I never left Cyndi's mom's table! I remember thinking I'll only be here a few years and then move on. Thirty-eight years later, I'm sad to be finally "graduating."


That first year, I struggled to add grades by hand; a friend (math teacher) actually came and helped me! My parents gave me a re-conditioned calculator for Christmas that first year - it could add, subtract, multiply, and divide. It cost a fortune even though re-conditioned. Today, I could buy a solar powered one for a buck! Now, I act like the world will end if the computer goes down! Heavens forbid if I make an error in STI!

I have actually resided in only four different rooms in the past 38 years. I started in the old building in Room 104 (which eventually became the cardio lab); moved to Room 124 when the auditorium was built (there for 25 years); was moved to Room 101 between Leto and Swanke; and landed in Room 1303 in the new building. Every room was my "home" - probably spent more time at school than at home at times! I wanted my kids to be comfortable and also feel at "home."


I have taught Speech 1 and Advanced Speech all 38 years! Although the class is not required, probably 95% of the student body takes the beginning class (there aren't many one-semester classes, so it frequently becomes an alternative.) I was privileged to be theatre director for over 20 years. I have actually taught every English class at one time or another - in regular school, homebound instruction, summer school, or Challenge School.



(I have even taught English classes that no longer exist! These include Mass Media, Business English, ISTEP+ remediation, and FLIP.)
As I complete grade 56 (K-12 + 5 years ISU + 38 years HHS = 56) it seems fitting that I started Kindergarten during the 1955-1956 school year.


It has been an honor to have lived in Hobart and gone to school at HHS for 38 years. I have never "gone to work" - I "go to school" - and am glad that I'm leaving before it becomes WORK - at least that's how I will choose to look at it.

BE THERE!

MAKE THEIR DAY!

CHOOSE YOUR ATTITUDE!



PLAY!


ONCE A BRICKIE, ALWAYS A BRICKIE!